So I have been given the gift of a son. God has not given me enough patience to deal with the family that wants to tell me what and how to raise my son. I have had enough of the visits and all the advice, some of it stupid, that everyone brings. Not to mention the old school remedies that now a days will get child welfare services knocking on your door. I love my fam, don’t get me wrong but they have gone overboard with the ( what they call) help. Now is the time I just want to enjoy my baby while he is a baby. I am not going yo stress myself out about pleasing them or doing what they want or dress him up in the outfit they bought just because. I have to do what can make my routine easy for me. I am always on the go and I now have to fit in a baby to my going. That alone ain’t easy and the fam is getting in the way. Some advice they gave me does work so thanks for that.
I get a lot of help from my husband. I had to help him over his fear of hurting the baby because he is so small (according to him) I told him he wouldn’t hurt him. After about 3 weeks he was changing diapers and warming bottles like a pro. I thank God for him. I love being a mother but I am a bit of a worry wart. I get up in the night to make sure the baby is okay in his crib. I take his pulse a couple of times a day. I was checking his temp every 8 hours. I count his respirations sometimes. I listen to his heart when he’s asleep. I think that all these things signify a mental condition that I have aptly named “MommyPhobia”. I have gotten over a few but not all of the OCD I have about my baby.
Sometimes I wonder what kind of favour I have in heaven to have such blessings on earth.
My son will be two months old on July 21, 2010. I am so happy to be a Mother, finally! I thought this would never come but no one knows God’s plan. I have the most beautiful baby boy. He was 8lbs. and 15.5 oz. when he was born. He looks just like me and his name is Corey Jr. My husband was gleaming the day he was born. I can’t believe it myself. I was really caught off guard when I found out I was pregnant. Now I can safely say that it was all worth it. And for my husband, I would do it again. He has been great. He does the diapers and the feedings. He and CJ have a little unspoken language between them that I am going to have to watch. They communicate with ESP or something. I have been getting advice from everyone and help left and right. I was also told that only happens with the first child. After that you are on your own. I am leaving a 5 year space between mine. If I decide to have another child. I am still remined by my c-section with a scar from the center of my belly to just below my navel. God has blessed me with a child, now I need some more Patience. For the child and my husband.
So far this experience has been scary but I have a lot of support. My family tries to make sure that I have every thing I need and that I don’t have to do anything. They treat me like I am fragile or something. I am ready to have this baby. It is taking a lot out of me to be still and not over work myself. I want to do so much but I have to think about someone other than me. Having a life inside of you is an experience within itself. I still am not used to the kicking and the moving around. I still have to keep my diabetes in check. Not just for me but for the baby.
I am excited to see what life will be like after the baby is born. My husband has the hardest time adjusting. He still hasn’t grasped the fact that we will have a baby in about 6 weeks. I can’t wait. We found out last month that we were having a boy and I was so happy. I don’t think I would be ready for a girl just yet. I would like to have one more child in five years but I will take my time getting there. It has been a while since I took care of a newborn. I haven’t forgotten anything it’s just all the new information out now and weeding through the advice of veteran moms. Wish me luck and pray that it all goes well. Starting with labor and delivery.
The day after Thanksgiving I went to the ER for a high blood sugar reading. Patiently waiting on insulin or an IV, suddenly I was hit with the news that my blood work said that I was pregnant. Having already accepted the fact that maybe I would never have any children, I had already came to terms with the idea. This was not only a shock to me but also to my family. We had all thought I was not able to bear a child. Here I am at 29 years old and I am expecting my first child. I am terrified. Not because of the pregnancy, but on 11/27/09 I was already 14 weeks in. my whole first trimester gone and I had no Idea I was even Pregnant. No prenatal care, bad management of my type 2 diabetes not to mention I was drinking and smoking. I was horribly tormented by guilt and fear that I would miscarry or that my baby was in serious danger.
My first doctors appointment put me at ease. I got an ultrasound of a very happy baby and healthy baby. I was so relived. Now I am 17 weeks and taking it one good step at a time doing what is right and making better choices not only for me but for the baby.
I am a little embarassed though. I have cousins a little younger than me that have children school age. I feel like I am behind the pack or something.
Lately when I go shopping I have been looking for things for myself. I have found a few products I have been waiting to try and today is my review on those things.
This is a rich moisturizer that I absolutely love. It gives your skin moisture and it has the SPF sun protection. I use it after I wash my face and before I put on my face every day. I can’t think of why I used anything else. I love this moisturizer. Best of all it’s rich without being heavy and that is the best part.
This blush is a great contouring blush. It looks shimmery and it isn’t. The shimmer in the blush makes it glow and that is what it will do to your skin, make it glow. It looks like a natural rosy glow without looking fake or costume. I love the color pay off and it stays put.
This has become a true staple in my makeup wardrobe. I use this for everyday and I pair it with two other products that give it more staying power and longevity. Prep and prime and the studio Moisture fix. These products together may be a bit heavy for people with normal to oily skin but, my skin is dry and it needs every bit of moisture and balance it can get. Powder foundations are naturally dry so that’s why I pay special attention in preparing my skin. Unlike other powder foundations, the consistency of the studio fix is much more refined giving way to smoother application and a more natural feel.
I took a trip to the mall looking for a sale I had read about in the paper. On my way to the store that was having the sale I passed by a MAC store. I went in and I was in heaven. This was the cleanest cosmetics store I had ever been in. The MA immediately came to me and asked if I needed help with anything and I told her this was my first time and that I had never used the brand. She then asked me what kind of look was I going for and I told her just an everyday neutral face. She asked me about 20 questions about my skin and my lifestyle and about what kind of time I have to do my makeup or skincare. She basically wanted to know how the look would fit into my life. This I found very interesting. Because most salespeople don’t care why you want it as long as they make a sale. So her listening to me made me feel good about being there and not like I didn’t belong.
I am a simple girl who likes simple things. I don’t have time for a lot of fuss so I have very little in my makeup bag. I have some favorites that I would like to share with you.
I recently took a trip to Marshall’s and they had two Sugar Cosmetics products. I got the Travel Tan and the Sugar Cube. First, the Travel Tan. I found this product to give a matte glow to my skin which is what I like. I don’t care for a lot of shimmer and this product didn’t have all the shimmer like other bronzing products. I really liked it. And it was so matte and similar to my skin tone that I used it as a substitution to my powder.